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Portal to Heck

by The John Buxton Experience

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1.
Blegh! I wonder Do you think about me as much as I think of you? And I wonder Am I living in your mind rent free too? And I wonder Has anxiety got its grip on all of your thoughts? And I wonder Do you feel like you've lost every battle you've fought? I want a break from anxiety, but I don't want to feel apathy But this isn't me trying to beg for your sympathy How can I relax if my own existence is cursed and everything I do just makes everything worse Everyday I scare the living shit out of myself Everyday I run and cover from the things that could help All of my passions have welted up and dried All of my passions have completely died
2.
Frenzy 03:57
Something don't feel right No this can't be true I don't want nothing, not a goddamn thing from you What once felt right Now feels off I thought I was found but now I realize I was lost yeah Well they hijacked our hearts and stole our minds, yeah They took what was ours and claimed it as theirs, yeah We had no idea we were being held captive, yeah Maybe now we can break these mental chains, yeah The anointed looked from up above and fired down arrows with grace and love Fire rained down from the fucking sky With personalized comets for you and I We all deserve this bitter end This dark destruction is just a god send Your demise is a consequence of the fact that you've completely ran out of time
3.
Everyone wants to find purpose But that can be so hard to define The thought of a life void of meaning Is enough to send chills down your spine Who wants to go through the motions Until they've met their timely fate I hope you're able to find meaning Before it's too late Maybe this wicked system of things ain't so wicked after all You've been fed ideas that were meant to keep ya feeling small Like you're so hopeless and helpless but I don't think you're helpless at all Maybe everything ain't as bad as it seems After all The mind is a powerful thing that can be easily rearranged Feelings and emotions may be fleeting and even memories can change A foe will appear as a friend yeah, from the very start Sooner or later they'll get inside of you And pick you apart If you think its all for nothing You're absolutely right If you think it don't mean anything You're absolutely right If you think its bleak and empty You're absolutely right
4.
A ball of energy is hurling towards me And its hurling fast It knocks me back on my back and I wonder How long can this feeling last? It lifts me from my tedious state and now I Now I feel the power My face falsely shines bright this is My darkest hour What did you expect from me I'm a walk a walking stiff anyways Spend my life sulking in sorrow And wasting away all of my days Sinking into my couch and my head feels like its gonna explode I'll never get myself into this bind again or so the story goes Making promises to myself that I I know I'll never keep Maybe one day I'll quit lying to myself And get some peaceful sleep
5.
In the darkness we gained our power In the darkness we came of age In the shadows we sought revenge In the shadows we let out our rage I don't expect you to understand I just thought I'd fill you in a bit In the morning we return to form In the light everything's unchanged Nothings sacred nor cryptic We dispose of the evidence Scream for the night
6.
Goin' Mad 04:49
You sense there's no-one around you Are you truly alone? You surroundings they could confound you Or scare you straight to the bone Panic starts to set in Your blood curdles within You know you've gotta get out of this place Oh god you've gotta get out of this place The air feels thick and moist and cold Your previous concerns are put on hold You can't back down you cannot fold The greatest lie you were ever told Let's make our escape And hope to god it's not too late We'll slip out of sight Guided by the moonlight We'll fade into obscurity Cleanse ourselves of impurities I'm starting to salivate Let's do it now, I can't wait Now you can calm your thoughts And lay your worries to rest That sudden surge of adrenaline Sure put you to the test But you're not quite ready To lay down for the night One last thought haunts you What if your fears are right?

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This album was recorded at the Breadfactory in Eau Claire, WI on September 25th-27th, 2020.

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released December 12, 2020

John Buxton - Guitar/Bass/Drums/Vo-kills

All songs written by John Buxton

Engineered by Chris Hoyt

Mixed and Mastered by Will Wall

Photography by Angie Weber

Dedicated to Shane Coffield

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The John Buxton Experience Eau Claire, Wisconsin

The solo project of John Buxton, a musician from Eau Claire, WI.

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